It is 2:36 am. I’ve been tossing and turning again…my brain has been nonstop zipping around but with no particular destination. I tried having some warm milk…tried my newly learned deep breathing exercises. I tried making my to do list so I can empty out my brain. But nothing has worked. Last night I couldn’t handle it and took a Tylenol PM…bad idea. What’s worse is I can’t pinpoint where my brain wants to go…if I could I’d jot it down or let it wander there and finally get some rest. But instead my brain wants to go everywhere and nowhere all at once. Perhaps this is a consequence of the major changes my life went through in just a few short weeks in January. For a while it seemed like everything was in the air and soon I am coming to a crossroads. Maybe this is just a side effect of the massive reflecting I’ve been doing in my life recently. I’m not sure. But what I do know is that I have been thinking quite a lot about my life and my future…about how I want the quality of my life to be, holistically. I haven’t come up with any brilliant answers yet. So far I’ve figured out bits and pieces of what I enjoy and don’t enjoy in my life as it is right now. I’m letting my mind and heart ruminate on that for a while before I start trying to figure out what it is that I want out of my life…and then seeking out to make that a reality.<\/p>\n
Some Rumi to ease the soul…<\/p>\n
look at love
\nhow it tangles
\nwith the one fallen in love<\/p>\n
look at spirit
\nhow it fuses with earth
\ngiving it new life<\/p>\n
why are you so busy
\nwith this or that or good or bad
\npay attention to how things blend<\/p>\n
why talk about all
\nthe known and the unknown
\nsee how the unknown merges into the known<\/p>\n
why think seperately
\nof this life and the next
\nwhen one is born from the last<\/p>\n
look at your heart and tongue
\none feels but deaf and dumb
\nthe other speaks in words and signs<\/p>\n
look at water and fire
\nearth and wind
\nenemies and friends all at once<\/p>\n
the wolf and the lamb
\nthe lion and the deer
\nfar away yet together<\/p>\n
look at the unity of this
\nspring and winter
\nmanifested in the equinox<\/p>\n
you too must mingle my friends
\nsince the earth and the sky
\nare mingled just for you and me<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"