Sleepless in LA

It is 2:36 am. I’ve been tossing and turning again…my brain has been nonstop zipping around but with no particular destination. I tried having some warm milk…tried my newly learned deep breathing exercises. I tried making my to do list so I can empty out my brain. But nothing has worked. Last night I couldn’t handle it and took a Tylenol PM…bad idea. What’s worse is I can’t pinpoint where my brain wants to go…if I could I’d jot it down or let it wander there and finally get some rest. But instead my brain wants to go everywhere and nowhere all at once. Perhaps this is a consequence of the major changes my life went through in just a few short weeks in January. For a while it seemed like everything was in the air and soon I am coming to a crossroads. Maybe this is just a side effect of the massive reflecting I’ve been doing in my life recently. I’m not sure. But what I do know is that I have been thinking quite a lot about my life and my future…about how I want the quality of my life to be, holistically. I haven’t come up with any brilliant answers yet. So far I’ve figured out bits and pieces of what I enjoy and don’t enjoy in my life as it is right now. I’m letting my mind and heart ruminate on that for a while before I start trying to figure out what it is that I want out of my life…and then seeking out to make that a reality.

Some Rumi to ease the soul…

look at love
how it tangles
with the one fallen in love

look at spirit
how it fuses with earth
giving it new life

why are you so busy
with this or that or good or bad
pay attention to how things blend

why talk about all
the known and the unknown
see how the unknown merges into the known

why think seperately
of this life and the next
when one is born from the last

look at your heart and tongue
one feels but deaf and dumb
the other speaks in words and signs

look at water and fire
earth and wind
enemies and friends all at once

the wolf and the lamb
the lion and the deer
far away yet together

look at the unity of this
spring and winter
manifested in the equinox

you too must mingle my friends
since the earth and the sky
are mingled just for you and me

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2 Comments On This Topic
  1. Roberto Marquez
    February 25, 2011

    Hope you find what you need. Give a call sometime.

    Roberto

  2. Margarita
    February 25, 2011

    when channeled correctly the four elements have the power to nurture our body and spirit
    the crossroads of love, friendships, adversaries and choice can become a blur
    leaving us in a fog
    a blur of confussion
    A sign to regroup
    re-focus
    on every breathe
    Perhaps a new look, change of scenary or
    book
    Experience and Wisdom can not be contended
    continue working on your creative expression and
    therapeautic outlet because
    the beautiful images are a reflection of your spirit

    look forward to more

    m.a.s.

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